It has been over two months now since I went to see Mel Gibson’s “Apocalypto” and yet I still can’t get it out of my mind. If you’ve seen it, you know part of the reason is it’s much deserved R rating. It is one of the most violent movies I have ever seen- it is not a movie for the faint of heart. However, I don’t think that the strong violent content is what has it stuck in my head- it is the message of the movie. The main character, Jaguar Paw, is plauged by fear- so much so that it has paralyzed him. He lives in a constant state of anxiety about his life. The movie is a story of his struggle with fear.
I think the movie hit home with me because this is one of my struggles. I think I tend to live in fear. I tend to lean toward conservative decisions all the time, and I rarely like to take risks. This may be a good way to keep my life as “safe” as possible, but it is not a very good way to impact the world for God.
I’ve been thinking about this as it relates to how we raise our boys. Everything in me wants to protect them. I want to keep them away from everything that could possibly hurt them. Obviously, there are a lot of good things about this desire, but if it causes me to shelter them from every possible bad thing they could encounter, I’m not helping them at all. I don’t want to raise boys who are sheltered from every aspect of the world. I want to raise courageous warriors who change the world for God.
I’m not sure yet what God wants me to change in my life, but I know that he wants me to be more courageous. I looked up some Scriptures about the topic and this one stood out to me…
“The members of the council were amazed when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, for they could see that they were ordinary men with no special training in the Scriptures. They also recognized them as men who had been with Jesus.” (Acts 4:13 NLT)
It seems that people who have been with Jesus are extraordinarily bold. I’d love to be that way. I don’t want to go through life safely. I want to rock the boat, go against the flow, shake things up, change the world for God.