I had my first run in with a little bit of the “portable church blues” yesterday. I’d say that’s pretty good since it’s my first and we’ve been a portable church for 15 months now. Normally, I am excited at the challenge- taking a high school and making it an engaging place to attend church. However, for whatever reason, yesterday was different. It was just hard. I felt like I was pushing myself to do it the whole day.
Interestingly enough, the message yesterday was was on “personal disciplines.” Andy defined discipline as “doing what you ought to do instead of doing what you want to do.” That is what I did yesterday, and I would normally consider my lack of motivation to make yesterday happen a very unspiritual thing. But with this thought in mind, it may have been the most spiritual thing I could have done.
I will never be fully and completely motivated to do what’s right all of the time. But when I choose to do what’s right- especially when I don’t fell like it- that is a deeply spiritual thing. It may not feel as warm and fuzzy as when I do it purely motivated, but it is very pleasing to God. I pray I will continue to do the right things- especially when I don’t feel like it.